u&me

i toss n turn..i cant sleep tonight its raining outside...opened my window sills n watched the rain pitter patter pitter patter it ws dancing.....a rain dance?

the whole world is going beserk
xploring their dreamz with love&passion twinkling in their eyes
and here i am locked in this room
chained somewhere to the darkness


the book i ws reading ...
tried to get back to my reading darn!
i cant do it now...
the letters r dancing
the emotionz flying
the creeps popping out
the prince charming ran way!
from me?

switched on the tv browsed through the channels the same old story... gosh! movies.cliche movies... again tat uptown gurl fell in love ..with that same old romeo ,they fell in love, they kissed, they dreamed... and the tragedy... !i cant deal with this anymore switched it off
boring hw boring

coffee will do some help?
made some coffee with xtra sugar
sipped it ughhhhhh...its horrible!
now i am going "ughh" with my coffee? wats wrong wid me?


wats tat i am missing now?
i knw what it is... the sleep the rain the loneliness the books the movies the coffee its not really not about all this.... its more than that... the inxplicable that something
the pretentious desperedo thats troubling me
that supercilious moron who chases me in every dream
go away all.....

came back to my bed ...closed my eyes, pretended like i fell asleep, tried to sleep... not working !

then i heard the 'knock'
i ran up to the door
unlocked it
i saw 'him'
drenched in that pouring rain
water dripping down
shivering
but trying to keep himself warm by rubbing his hands against his cheeks
his dark shiny hair all wet
yes,with that refreshing smile of him
'wanted to tell u something!' i was like 'go on baby' but words dint come out it was like i got paralysed n got numb n only my vision is in working state.... i just nodded so he started
"i was trying to get some sleep but i cant
i was looking at this rain, i saw u
i tried to read something,then i saw that creep chasing u
i switched on the movie, again u kept coming to me
i tried coffee,our favorite, even its not working
n i really know wats tat i am missing
n i came here for u,just to say......
before he cud utter anything,i went near him hugged him closer to me, he came down to me his lips near my ears n he began to whisper something... again i interrupted... "hushhhhhhhhhh" then i said
"okay u prince charming watch my lips"i winked at him and pushed him away...he gave me that naughty smile he looked and i said
"i love you...."
he came close to me closer n closer...hugged me kissed me ... ! ablaze!!
and now i know what was missing...even he knows...!
and then it was raining
and i heard it..... pitter patter.....!!!

~dreamy eyes~

"my eyes could see that your love for me is fading somewhere....!

you could leave me behind but not my love...

it will haunt you sometime...

when you r weak ...

and in that moment you may be able to define love as my eyes!

but then i would be a memory for you

i defined the unrequited love for you as my eyes

with all the dreams ,its YOU who made my eyes so dreamy

the dreamy eyes that i am...!!!"

HE....!

"withering off untouched

a deeper meaning to my love..."
every evening we used to talk...how we became this close...?noone knows !not even me...!but his presence made me happy...his smell ,his touch, tat deep voice was my deepest concern ever...!

we watched the sunset together we painted those dreamz together ,the pain in his voice troubled me...!

the pain that he never told me....the pain which i saw beyond his smiling face...but i never asked him,he never told me.....!

when the decision was to leave, i dint stop..!

i knew he was my imagination...

a dream tat only i cud see....

HE the mirage i saw when i stopped dreaming...!

walking away from my dreamz

to the sunrise ...are u?

:)

the silence must be heard

the feeling should be touched

the love should be felt

the pain should hurt

there is dreamyeyes behind everyone

its not so plain

its so full of pain

my storm s resting

the unspoken hurt

the untold love

when love and hate collide

yea u r losing it

i m nobody's fool

i cud burn my existence like this??

its nice... is this burning sensation!!!

eyes says it all....still it can conceal everything....make up adds beauty but its deceiving ME!!!

take me for a walk!!!

Gonna write about a special person…my grand father!!!….he is no more…he is the one whom I miss the most…today I must write about him…!When I was in school I used to wait for those holidays…during those holidays I used to go to my mom’s place…a break from all my tensions…I loved that place…there I cud talk talk n talk..but most of the time I will be fighting with grandmom…as she will be there pestering me telling like ‘look at ur hair!no oil at all ,its brown now…take a shower…I will oil ur hair’ and eat tat eat this ,look how skinny u are and all tat stuffs…I will be running like anything from her…n from her its my grandpa who helps me out !!!When grandma goes violent at me I will run to grandpa & he will take me for a WALK…A WALK thru those roads…on both sides of the road there were these green fields with cows,small pools n I really loved those breeze which blows n caresses me...everything in there were so full of love... …and I will walk with him ho;ding his hands enjoying the beauty and I always knew like, am safe with him …while we walk he will be talking to the neighbours & his frndz when he introduces me to them I will just pass some kinda 'innocent' looking smiles …& again I will walk holding his hands…."the most happiest days in my life"…u know walking thru those roads with my apoo(grandpa) happy will be me!!!…after a looong walk I will get exhausted, then he will take me to his frnd’s shop n will buy me lime juice…isspesual ! it will be with more sugar …'extra sugar cold lime juice'…after that apoo will ask me to select any BISCUIT I like… I will look thru those glass windows with much eagerness for tat MILKBIKIS and when I will get tat to my hands I will get tat weird feeling like yeah ,I hv conquered this world(lol I dunno y but I always felt it tat way!)and we will continue tat walk…with me munching those biscuits all way back home…I really cant express wat all tat meant to me… those walks those biscuits(lol)…and tat hold n his tat presence !!!I always had somewhere to go n tat SOMEONE other than my dad to whom I cud demand all my needs…anyways it’s the past n everything has changed..sometimes I will wish for this walk hmmmm n I know its all past n its not gonna happen again…I miss him a lot…Lost my good old days…n tat place have changd a lot now…TECNOPARK changed tat place a lot…now those shops where we used to go dun even exist…there its now the internet café’s, bakery’s, hotel’s n all tat stufss n the look has changed a lot…and where is tat place I used to go…its ‘nowhere’ now…n I am left with those memories atleast!!! n now WHO will take me for those walks????